=)

2010-07-12T21:44:00.003+08:00

yet another survey by acjl

Ten How's:
How did you get one of your scars? cut
How did you celebrate your last birthday? errrrr with clique hahahah
How are you feeling at this moment? lonely
How did your night go last night? it was a pretty sweet night actually
How did you do in high school? cant wait for it to end
How did you get the shirt you’re wearing? bought it at elephants basement or whatever the name is called
How often do you see your best friend? whenever im in school unless she doesnt go to school or if i dont go to school x)
How old do you want to be when you get married? 21 - 25
How old will you be at your next birthday? 15

Nine What’s:
What is your mothers name? bee lian
What did you do last weekend? tuition and jp with sister
What is the most important part of your life? life in itself
What would you rather be doing? texting hunnn
What did you last cry over? only hun knows
What always makes you feel better when you’re upset? crying
What’s the most important thing you look for in a significant other? lasting love
What are you worried about? random stuff
What did you have for breakfast? 2 cigarettes

Eight Have You’s:
Have you ever liked someone who had a girlfriend/boyfriend? yes
Have you ever had your heart broken? yes
Have you ever been out of the country? yes
Have you ever done something outrageously dumb? yes
Have you ever been back stabbed by a friend? yes
Have you ever had sex on the beach? no
Have you ever dated someone younger than you? by a few months, yes
Have you ever read an entire book in one day? yes

Seven Who’s:
Who was the last person you saw? dad
Who was the last person you texted? hunnn
Who was the last person you hungout with? whole of iclique
Who was the last person to call you? hunnn
Who did you last hug? hunnn
Who is the last person who texted you? hunnn
Who was the last person you said “I love you” to? hunnn

Six Where’s:
Where does your best friend live? errrrr jelapang
Where did you last go? lot 1
Where did you last hang out? lot 1
Where do you go to school? dunearn secondary
Where is your favorite place to be? a place with hunnn around
Where did you sleep last night? bed

Five Do’s:
Do you like someone right now? love
Do you think anyone likes you? dont know
Do you ever wish you were someone else? yes
Do you know the muffin man? yes
Does the future scare you? a little

Four Why’s:
Why are you best friends with your best friend? fated
Why did you get a Tumblr? nothing to do last year july (eh my tumblr is 1 year old)
Why did your parents give you the name you have? they wanted p & p so ok im pamela my sister is priscilla
Why are you doing this survey? dunno leh

Three If’s:
If you could have one super power what would it be? teleport
If you could go back in time and change one thing, would you? no
If you were stranded on a deserted island and could bring 1 thing, what would you bring? coffin

Two Would-You-Ever’s
Would you ever get back together with any of your ex’s if they asked you? no
Would you ever shave your head to save someone you love? yeah. then get a wig

One last question:
Are you happy with your life right now? happy with whats happening - yes. life - no.

2010-07-12T21:19:00.002+08:00

horribly long survey stolen by acjl

Bold the ones that are true for you.
I am a morning person.
I am a perfectionist.
I am an only child.
I am Catholic.
I am currently in my PJs.
I am currently pregnant.
I am currently suffering from a broken heart.
I am left handed.
I am married.
I am addicted to MySpace.
I’m shy around the opposite sex.
I bite my nails.
I currently regret something I have done.
When I get mad I curse.
I don’t like anyone.
I enjoy country music.
I enjoy jazz music.
I have a car.
I have a cell phone.
I have a pet.
I have been to another country.
I have been told that I’m smart.
I have been told I have an unusual sense of humor.
I have had a broken bone.
I have changed a lot over the past year.
I have had surgery.
I have killed another person.
I have had my hair cut within the last week.
I have had the cops called on me.
I have kissed someone I knew I shouldn’t.
I have kissed someone of the same gender.
I have mood swings.
I have rejected someone before.
I have seen the Lord of the Rings trilogy.
I have watched Sex and the City.
I like Shakespeare.
I love to cook.
I love Michael Jackson.
I love sleeping.
I love to shop.
I miss someone right now.
I own over 100 CDs.
I own over 100 DVDs.
I own and use a library card.
I practice a religion that is not considered mainstream.
I read books for pleasure in my spare time.
I sleep a lot during the day.
I strongly dislike math.
I think Britney Spears is pretty.
I will try ALMOST anything once.
I work at a job that I enjoy.
I would classify myself as ghetto.
I can name all seven dwarfs from Snow White.
I am currently wearing socks.
I am tired.
I am currently waiting for someone.
I lost contact with someone.
I think Party In The USA is catchy.
I’d date Harry Potter.
I can name all the past presidents of the United States.
I know who was president before George Bush.
I love pickles.
I need the internet to live.
I prefer vanilla over chocolate.
I watched Star Trek.
I watched all six movies of Star Wars.
I own an Xbox.
I think music is life.

Music (Bold the ones you like)
Acceptance. Coldplay. Dave Matthews Band. David Bowie. Foo Fighters. Hellogoodbye. The Killers. James Blunt. Teddy Geiger. Linkin Park. Muse. Ok Go. Panic At The Disco. Peter Bjorn. The Postal Service. Timbaland. Jack Johnson. Norah Jones. Drake. The Fray. The Wreckers. Michael Buble. Beyoncé. Metallica. Massive Attack. Queen. Journey. The Cars. Supertramp. Eurythmics. Sublime. The Red Hot Chili Peppers. Wu-tang Clan. Fergie. Sarah McLachlan. Band of Horses. John Mayer. Jason Mraz. Justin Timberlake. Michael Jackson. Kenny Chesney.Carrie Underwood. Lynyrd Skynyrd. Neil Young. The Beatles. Brad Paisley. Tim McGraw. Taylor Swift. P. Diddy. Jay Z. Lil’ Wayne. Lil’ Jon. Three 6 Mafia. Nelly. Young Joc. T.I. Sean Paul. 50 Cent. Eminem. Eiffel 65. Ace of Base. The Underdog Project. Dream Theater. Santana. Alicia Keys. Incubus. Victor Wooten. Ludacris. Gorillaz. The Strokes. Matchbox 20. Paramore. Say Anything. Taking Back Sunday. Eric Clapton. The Darkness. Weezer. Eagles. Jimi Hendrix. Maroon 5. Billy Joel. Reel Big Fish. Anberlin. Mae. Family Force 5. AC/DC. Hootie and the Blowfish. Electric Six. Outkast. R.E.M. The White Stripes. Prince. Mika. Crystal Castles. Britney Spears. Spice Girls. The Gossip. Lady GaGa. Nirvana. Smashing Pumpkins. Third Eye Blind. Metro Station. All Time Low. Motion City Soundtrack. The Rocket Summer. Tenacious D. Something Corporate. The Moldy Peaches. Macy Gray. Mandy Moore. Plain White T’s. Yeah Yeah Yeahs. My Chemical Romance. Fall Out Boy. We the Kings. The Rolling Stones. Angels & Airwaves. The Beastie Boys. Black Eyed Peas. Boys Like Girls. Jonas Brothers. Demi Lovato. Selena Gomez. The Cure. Cobra Starship. Death Cab for Cutie. Deftones. Team Sleep. Filter. Goo Goo Dolls. Honor Society. Katy Perry. Kid Cudi. MCFLY. The Summer Set. Marianas Trench. Ashley Tisdale. A Rocket To The Moon. Never Shout Never. Glee.

Movies (Bold the ones you’ve seen)
Pride and Prejudice. Glory Road. The Princess Bride. Goonies. Center Stage. Ocean’s Eleven. Seven. Newsies. 300. Robin Hood Men In Tights. Love Actually. Garden State. Donnie Darko. Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind. My Best Friend’s Wedding. Anchorman. Drop Dead Gorgeous. Wedding Crashers. Elf. Zoolander. Austin Powers. Clueless. Mean Girls. Hairspray. Moulin Rouge. Fight Club. Rocky. Pulp Fiction. What A Girl Wants. Kill Bill. Thank You For Smoking. Little Miss Sunshine. Requiem for a Dream. The Departed. Dawn of the Dead. Memento. The Lovely Bones. 17 Again. 8 Mile. Office Space. Snakes on a Plane. Boondock Saints. Say Anything. The Silence of the Lambs. Saving Private Ryan. Superbad. The Prestige. Just Friends. The Devil Wears Prada. Saw. Ace Ventura. Under the Tuscan Sun. Titanic. Steel Magnolias. She’s the Man. Because I Said So. Catch and Release. Music and Lyrics. Spanglish. Stick It. Step Up. The Fast and the Furious. Joyride. Halloween. The Italian Job. Crash. Must Love Dogs. The Last Kiss. Chicago. Harry Potter. Rush Hour. Breakfast at Tiffany’s. Clerks. Shooter. The Bourne Identity. Meet the Parents. Dirty Dancing. bRudy. Miss Congeniality. National Treasure. Sleepless in Seattle. The Science of Sleep. The Matrix. Good Will Hunting. Bill and Ted’s Excellent Adventure. Empire Records. Phantom of the Opera. Lord of the Rings. Click. Scarface. District 9. The Notebook.

TV Series (Bold the ones that you’ve watched more than a couple of times)
ER. Grey’s Anatomy. Saved by the Bell. Man vs. Wild. Scrubs. South Park. America’s Next Top Model. Gossip Girl. Sex and the City. Friends. Dawson’s Creek. The Big Bang Theory. Seinfeld. The Office. Lost. Miami Ink. Made. Arrested Development. That 70’s Show. Family Guy. The Simpsons. Veronica Mars. Project Runway. Bones. Iron Chef. Alias. Pushing Dasies. Gilmore Girls. The Colbert Report. The Daily Show. Mythbusters. Avatar: The Last Airbender. Will and Grace. 24. House. To Catch A Predator. Whistler. Heroes. Aqua Teen Hunger Force. 7th Heaven. Unsolved Mysteries. Everybody Loves Raymond. Boston Legal. Bleach. What I Like About You. Reba. Survivor. King of Queens.. The O.C. American Idol. Days of Our Lives. How I Met Your Mother. CSI. Boy Meets World. Law and Order. Numbers. Reno 911. I Love New York. Step by Step. Little People Big World. What Not To Wear. My Wife and Kids. Moonlight. Supernatural. Ace of Cakes. White Collar. Nip/Tuck. The Biggest Loser. Beauty and the Geek. Battlestar Galactica. Stargate SG1. The Inferno. Scarred. Wild N Out. Real World. Trinity Blood. Dead Like Me. Whose Line is it Anyway?. Dragon Ball Z.Futurama. Firefly. Medium. Star Trek. X-files. Cowboy BeBop. Sailor Moon. My Name is Earl. Six Feet Under. Dancing With The Stars. Degrassi. Greek. Glee. Secret Life of the American Teenager. The Hills. Laguna Beach. Vampire Diaries. Cake Boss. Jonas. Hannah Montana. Sonny With A Chance. Wizards Of Waverly Place. TRANSform Me.

2010-07-10T23:51:00.002+08:00

1. I like Radiohead
2. I walk up the stairs two at a time
3. I have witnessed a mosh pit
4. I have experienced a mosh pit
5. I once caught a fish on vacation
6. I have punched/attacked a teacher
7. I have seen someone die
8. I have made fried dough
9. I have been in a New York City taxi
10. My hair is it’s natural colour
11. A movie has made me cry
12. A book has made me cry
13. A song has made me cry
14. I have been saved by a lifeguard
15. I am for the death penalty (in some cases)
16. There have been times when I seriously wished I could kill myself
17. I know someone else who committed suicide
18. I don’t show my emotions
19. I am a pessimist
20. I usually have no self confidence
21. People have told me they trust me
22. There is a TV in this room
23. I’m next to a window
24. I have given directions to someone in a car
25. Someone has borrowed something and not given it back yet
26. I’m a perfectionist
27. I usually try not to bring attention to myself
28. My parents want to know what homework I have.
29. We sometimes watch musicals in music class
30. I’m using a mac computer
31. I’m home alone
32. I’m an oldest child
33. I have a belt on…
34. …It’s studded.
35. I have plans for today
36. We’re allowed to chew gum at school
37. I live for summer
38. Sometimes it seems like I have OCD
39. I could people-watch all day
40. I’ve tried to be a vegetarian
41. Really skinny people annoy me
42. Lime green is an awesome color
43. I can touch my thumb to my pinkie around my wrist
44. I can know someone’s scent and know they’re near me
45. My parent(s) is a health freak
46. I try to use correct spelling/grammar on the computer
47. I know the difference between its and it’s
48. Dr. Pepper is my favorite soda
49. I can get very annoyed by happy people
50. I wish my hair was naturally curly
51. I’m sarcastic a lot
52. I’m at least a little bit Irish
53. I don’t tell people’s secrets
54. I don’t like the name Peg
55. I’ve slipped on a banana peel
56. I’m very ticklish
57. I give people the silent treatment when I’m mad instead of fighting
58. I wear my pajama pants to school
59. Swallowing pills is difficult for me
60. I get scared in elevators
61. I’ve been in a car for 7 hours straight
62. I like going on the subway
63. I’ve seen the same movie twice in a row
64. Sometimes I wish I could get plastic surgery
65. I have fallen down the stairs
66. I prefer pools to oceans
67. I have stayed up until 2:00am doing homework the whole time
68. I’ve cried myself to sleep
69. It’s almost worth breaking your leg just for the crutches.
70. I’ve fainted in public
71. I hate Bermuda shorts
72. Big lips are attractive
73. I like milk in my tea
74. I never wear skirts
75. My nails are fake
76. I can swear in different languages
77. Breakfast is the most important meal of the day
78. A stranger has tried to give me money
79. Lipstick is uncomfortable
80. My favorite band broke up
81. I have some friends in my neighborhood
82. I pack my own lunches for school
83. I hate words with too many consonants together
84. I’ve went three days without taking a shower
85. Laptop mouses are impossible
86. I have dropped something today
87. My away message is always up to avoid people
88. I’ve worn earphones/headphones without music to avoid people
89. People have complimented my handwriting
90. I know what aperture and shutter speed are
91. I say like a lot
92. My pinkies are crooked
93. I have a sibling in college/university
94. I’ve danced in the rain before
95. I know who wrote Great Expectations
96. I don’t know how to do the laundry
97. I hate doing the dishes
98. I make index cards for school even when they’re not required
99. I love making microwave s’mores
100. I have meditated before

2010-07-10T23:46:00.002+08:00

SCHOOL CONFESSIONS

[x] Talked back to a teacher.
[x] Been kicked out of class.
[ ] Worn pajamas to school.
[x] Had your tooth fall out at school.
[x] Gotten lost in your school.
[x] Broken the dress code in school.
[x] Completely failed a test.
[x] Left class without asking.
[x] Missed a whole week of school.
[x] Thrown up in school.

HOME LIFE CONFESSIONS

[ ] Argue with your parents a lot.
[ ] Argue with your brother(s) a lot.
[x] Argue with your sister(s) a lot.
[x] Have your own room.
[ ] Do your own laundry.
[ ] Cook dinner once in a while.
[ ] Are loud and obnoxious at home.
[x] Wear pajamas when you are not going anywhere.
[x] You sleep in very long.
[ ] All you do is watch television.
[ ] Your parents are divorced.
[ ] One or both of your grandparents live with you.
[ ] You dad or mom left you when you were very young.

FRIEND CONFESSIONS

[x] You currently dislike one or more of your friends.
[x] You are jealous of one or more of your friends.
[ ] You have known a friend your whole life or since you both were a child.
[ ] All of your friends are all taller than you.
[x] You have been ditched by a friend
[x] You have memorized a friends phone number.
[x] You have lost/forgotten a friends phone number.
[ ] You have been to all of your friends houses.

HABIT CONFESSIONS

[ ] You bite your nails.
[ ] You have an odd obsession with giraffes.
[x] You cannot sleep with the door closed.
[ ] You cannot sleep with the door open.
[x] There is at least one sound you cannot stand.

LOVE CONFESSIONS

[ ] You currently like someone. (love)
[x] You want to kill one of your exes.
[x] You can stay committed for an unusually long time.
[ ] You get bored of your crush/bf/gf easily.
[x] A crush/bf/gf has called you a bitch before.
[ ] A crush/bf/gf has called you self-centered before.

PERSONAL OPINION CONFESSIONS

[ ] You hate George Bush.
[ ] Abortion is horrible and should be illegal.
[x] Boys make better friends than girls do.
[x] The beach is an excellent place for a date.
[ ] Pink is an ugly color.
[x] Needles aren’t so horrible.

HAVE YOU EVER CONFESSIONS

[x] Fallen down the stairs.
[ ] Someone has tied your shoelaces together.
[x] Had a nail fall off.
[ ] Had surgery.
[x] Slapped someone across the face.
[ ] Someone has called you a tease.
[ ] You have been to Europe.
[x] You have worn something inside out for a whole day.
[x] You wear you pajamas all day long, even if you went outside

2010-07-10T23:05:00.000+08:00

TO MICHELLE C,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY WOMAN
dont worry i did not buy a dress =3

2010-07-07T22:07:00.002+08:00

Have you ever been with anyone and thought “I want to be with this person forever”?
yup

Do you sleep with or without clothes on?
with. too public to go without

Has anyone ever cheated on you? Do you think they would regret it?
no. if they did i wouldnt be too sure

Tell me what’s on your mind?
hun, choir tomorrow, my early morning smoke, hun, pills, new smoking rules, hun, hun, hun

What do you do when you have a bad day?
go out alone

Have you heard a song that reminds you of someone today?
yes

Do you say sorry first?
depends but mostly yes

If someone is doing something that upsets you, do you tell them?
hardly but sometimes i do

Something you’re happy about?
today, the fact i listening to my classes

Does anyone completely understand you?
yes there are only about 2 people who do

Is it usually easy for someone to make you smile?
yes

Meet anyone new this year?
yup

Do you have a reason to smile right now?
sort of

Marriage in your future?
now i wouldnt think so but maybe when im older or something

Are you afraid of commitment?
never was

Are you scared of growing old alone?
yes definitely

Do you get depressed about things easily?
yes

Do you believe that if you want something bad enough you’ll get it?
not entirely true

Does anyone love you?
yes

Did the last person you kissed have tattoos?
nope ;)

Have you ever been in a perfect relationship?
this relationship would be considered one actually

How did you get your last bruise?
forgotten.....

Do you hate anyone?
yeah one

Have you ever liked someone older than you?
yes of course

Last time you had pizza?
2 weeks ago i think

How many days until your next birthday?
13 MORE DAYSSSSSSS

Are you currently sad about anything?
sort of

Are you tired?
a little bit

Would you hug the last person you hugged again?
yes <3

Name something that made you frown today?
a text message

Why did you last laugh really hard?
when hun kept disturbing me Dx

Do you know anyone who is pregnant?
nope

How have you felt today?
a bit fine overall

What’s the background on your cellphone?
myself and a note that says 'my valentine <3 702'

Have you ever tried your hardest but got disappointed in the end?
millions of times perhaps

Are you friends with the person who broke you down most?
not anymore

What’s the latest you went to bed this week?
4am

Do you like anyone?
love

Are you drifting away from any friends?
yes

Do you use song lyrics to express how you feel?
sometimes

What are you listening to?
synthetic harmonizer

Do you miss anyone?
trillions

Does the last person who put their arms around you mean anything to you?
of course

Do you have a friend of the opposite sex that you feel comfortable talking to?
yeah

Do you regret something you did the day before yesterday?
nope!

Do you have anything in your pockets right now?
nope

Are you comfortable with answering personal questions?
depends on the questioner

Do you believe exes can really ever be “just friends”?
oh yes its possible

Have you made any mistakes recently?
i think no

Where were you at 1:02 AM this morning?
snoring

Anyone told you a secret this week?
yesss

What does the 5th text message in your inbox say?
'no good i suck'

Have you ever collapsed on the bathroom floor?
once i think

When was the last time you bought something?
cant really remember actually

In the next 4 months, what are you looking forward to most?
end of year holidays!!!!

2010-07-04T23:55:00.002+08:00

i am obsessed with johnny depp and i love it because i just got out of the hospital and i still dont know what the hell i do

2010-07-02T23:00:00.002+08:00

hello distantdrug.
your time is up soon.

reading back all the old entries i made in you, they were all something i had to leave behind along with your url.
in fact, im so happy now i forgot every single shitty thing that happened last year.
i cant remember them in great detail compared to how i used to.
life has been better.

why didnt i realise before that life can only get better if you make an effort?

2010-07-01T20:41:00.001+08:00

as an early birthday present, i got a macbook!!!
thanks daddy mummy sister <3

2010-06-27T19:18:00.002+08:00

this year so far has been pretty.... phased.

had an early adventure right on the second day of school, followed on for about 3 weeks, then the adventure decided to leave and my world seemed to end. and then there was this life support out of nowhere saving me probably without realising it. within a short period of time, this life support became a priority. it became so much of a priority it was driving me mentally insane. something came along and put this priority off course. it took another few weeks of shit to focus on that priority again. it was a happy period of time following that, even til today, actually, even though tears were shed, worries were placed and sometimes this thing i needed so much was going to be jeopardised and taken away from me. they would eventually make its way out in the end. everything would be what i call 'okay'. the holidays pained me a bit. the priority was there, still, but i couldnt stand going without it. i cant take it.

tomorrows the first day of school and i hope things get better.

im such a pessimist though, everything seems to go wrong for me no matter how close to alright it may be.

the priority will still be a priority for life, no matter how apart the priority is.
i need you so much and i hope youll know this is on an everyday basis.

cant wait to see you sweetheart

2010-06-26T22:21:00.003+08:00

i dont know what to update but ok i shall update an update on my blog so heres my update!

I HAVE UPDATED

there is school soon FUCKKKKKKKKKKKK where did this holiday go to???
i dont know if i can actually cope with my studies this is the first time im struggling x_x
i miss hon the days after school where we would make last minute plans to catch a movie at jp x)
i miss iclique doesnt feel right going to school and not eating breakfast or meeting up with them before walking to school hahahaha
of course i miss amandas daily rants and complaints nyahahahah

ok bb

2010-06-24T02:52:00.004+08:00

do you know that im fucking my own life up?
i wish you knew so you could be there when i need you
i was there when you wanted somebody to talk to
so where the fuck are you?

i love you, girl, i love you
but never mind you probably love me less than i expected you to
its okay

2010-06-23T00:56:00.002+08:00

nothings up these days
managed to spend time with hon today yayyyyyyy!!!!!!
went to eat at his workplace and i feel very ugh i dont feel like eating til tomorrow afternoon or something hahahaha

so the church camp was ok
havent been present for choir for some time i know
it was fathers day on sunday (yeah dont think ive forgotten)
i didnt have a present for daddy but i gave him a big hug its been very long since ive ever hugged him
it made me both happy and sad. i hardly give hugs to my dad anymore compared to last time
and today i was trying to make conversation with him and mom
something to do with the macdonalds cup and porridge
i saw him smile
then i closed the kitchen door and bawled my eyes out
i havent been a wonderful daughter lately
i see my dad less and less you know
like i dont go out very often, but at home all i do is to shut myself in the room watching skins and doing all sorts of crap

it hurts thinking about it you know
im losing him every second, every moment, but all i can do is to watch those seconds slip away
i cant do anything. i cant bring myself to tell my dad i want to spend more time with him
i just cannot
maybe thats the phase of growing up, but it probably pains me more because im a daddys girl by nature

you know

sigh

hun i miss you so much
dont ever slip away or leave ok?
one is enough...
and i dont want to go back to school.

2010-06-20T16:10:00.001+08:00

rest in peace.
its scary how anyone around us can leave us anytime.

2010-06-15T00:40:00.002+08:00

today i jumped on dear while he was sleeping NYAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
he said it hurt ok i am such an evil bitch

happy 4th month baby!!!

2010-06-13T22:09:00.001+08:00

I SPENT THE PAST FEW DAYS WATCHING SKINS SEASONS 3 AND 4
SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO GOOOOOOOOOOOOD I TELL YOU

fucking cried and laughed like crazy
WHY DID MY FAVOURITE CHARACTER DIE )=

2010-06-13T19:00:00.002+08:00

[bold what is true]

I am:

Happy. Sad. Adventurous. Shy. Confident. Procrastinating. A male. Bored. Anxious. Clumsy. Sociable. Always punctual. Selfish. Intelligent. Funny. A female. Sarcastic. Insecure. Sick. Beautiful. Articulate. Loud. Kind. Even tempered. Honest. Short. Tall. Medium height. Proud of myself. Loving. Witty. Down to earth. Outspoken. Determined. High maintenance. Pretty(comfortable with how I look). Assertive. Organized. Selfless.

I have:
Brown hair. Blue eyes. Brown Eyes. Pale Skin. Curly hair. Long fingernails. Curves. Braces. Chipped nail polish. Long legs. Straight hair. A fringe. Long eyelashes. Sore feet. Freckles. Dark skin. Medium skin. Green eyes. Blonde hair. Dyed hair. Red hair. Short legs. Big boobs (I wish). Rosy cheeks. Wavy hair. Black hair. A small waist (within reason). Piercings. Tattoos. Big ears. Short hair.

I love:
Babies. Flowers. Kisses. Summer. Coffee. The rain. Candles. Incense. Late night talk shows. Insects. Hugs. Attention. The beach. Chocolate. Music. Beanies. Harry Potter. Twilight. Facebook. Black and white photos. Sleeping in. Driving. Narrating my pet’s thoughts. Opening gifts. Buying gifts. Halloween. Cute texts. Apples. Compliments. Country music. Hip hop. Sushi. Sports. Art. Singing. Seeing my loved ones happy. Surprises. Sunsets and sunrises. Skinny dipping. Horror movies. Simon Cowell. Family Guy. Garlic. Tanning. Hearing somebody talk in their sleep. Being right. KFC. Concerts and festivals. Abstract photography. Oversized t-shirts.

I would love to be a:
Police officer. Lawyer. Doctor. Teacher. Fruit picker. Mother. Greenpeace volunteer. Hippie. Groupie. Rockstar. Footballer’s wife. Therapist. Singer. Actress. Diving instructor. Lottery winner. Company owner. Housewife. Nurse. Builder. Race car driver. Website developer. An inspirational talker. Music teacher. Artist. Chef. Makeup artist. Hairdresser. Restaurant owner. Homeless shelter volunteer. Fitness trainer. Vet. Radio show host. Band manager.

I like to eat:
Fruit. Vegetables. Fast food. Sushi. In bed. Rice. Sandwiches. Subway. Chicken. Cakes. Seafood. A lot. Pasta. Rice crackers. When I’m bored. Cheese. Ice cream. Garlic bread. Peanut butter out of the jar. Eggs. Lots of ethnic foods. Pancakes. Honey. Lunch. Bread crusts. Low calorie foods. Soy products. Gluten free products. Only when I’m hungry. Toast. Breakfast. Pizza.

I dislike:
Cold mornings. Baths. People dissing my taste in music. People in front of me walking really slowly. Having my personal space invaded. Cleaning. Going to bed early. Wine/beer. Religion arguments. Coffee. The beach. Rain. Children. Having my photo taken. Drama. Gossiping. Hip hop. Cooking shows. Drugs. Cats. People singing happy birthday to me. Selfish people. Social networking sites. Swimming. Snow. Eminem. Seafood. One word text messages. Awkward silences. Alarm clocks.

lol i pretty much bolded most of the stuff in 'i like to eat'

2010-06-13T18:43:00.002+08:00

[bold what is true]

My first year of college will be over soon.
I am going to a really exciting concert this summer.
I share a birthday with someone else in my family.
I am going to get a haircut next week.
My parents don’t want any pets.
I eat potatoes with almost every dinner.
I clean my room every weekend.
My favorite animals are lions.
I have never been out of the country.
I would love to go on an African safari.
I’m not a very good cook.
I should be studying for a test right now.
I wear jeans just about every day.
I just recently turned nineteen years old.
There is a plant in the room I’m in. (plush plants count??)
I actually really enjoy America’s Next Top Model.
I’m terrified of scorpions.
I have a list of movies that I need to see.
I have seen the movie Me and You and Everyone We Know.
My most hated chore is folding/putting away laundry.
I don’t eat lamb.
I only have one or two people that I can tell anything to.
On most days I let my hair do its natural thing.
My least favorite color is yellow.
I own a video camera.
I have attempted to write a book.
I volunteered for Earth Week.
I am currently reading a Stephen King book.
I don’t think I look good in hats.
I have bluish-green eyes.
I like carpet better than hardwood floors.
Jack Black really makes me laugh.
I am wearing socks right now.
I am on my laptop, but I own a desktop computer also.
I bite my nails.
I read Cyanide & Happiness daily.
I really like curly hair on the opposite sex.
There are pictures hung up on the refrigerator.
I get annoyed when people smoke around me.
I get headaches a lot.
I don’t wear glasses or contacts.
I currently am wearing a watch.
I want to learn how to snowboard.
I’m really short.
I’m sitting on a couch.
I only judge actors and actresses based on their acting.
I’m not wearing any make-up.
My dad is more than six years older than my mom.
I own a white iPod.
I watched the show The Wonder Years a lot.
Both of the Savage brothers are awesome!
I love broccoli cheddar soup.
My family owns a cabin for camping.
I enjoy swimming in the river.
Five is my lucky number.
Beagles make really great pets.
I think Beyonce is talented.
I have very pale skin.
I get poison ivy very easily.
I’m going to Atlantic City this summer.
I live in Pennsylvania.
I give the peace sign quite often in pictures.
I love this time of year.
I own a Sony television.
I eat Ramen noodles a lot.
I didn’t eat breakfast this morning.
I drink tea almost every day.
My least favorite subject in school is math.
The blinds in my room aren’t open.
I chat online more than on my cell phone.
George Harrison is my favorite Beatle.
Most of the t-shirts I own are black.
I haven’t been to the mall in a while.
I have a hairstyle with bangs.

2010-06-11T17:56:00.002+08:00

[BOLD WHAT IS TRUE]

- i have a lot of different thoughts and shit going through my head right now.
- fully being aware about something doesn’t really change my decisions, even if it really should.
- i’m in one of those moods right now where i just don’t want to be around anyone at all.
- currently i’m freaked out because i have no idea what i’m doing at all with my life from here.
- insignificant things seem to have a really huge impact on me.
- my most favorite time to be in the pool is either really late at night or when it’s really hot out.
- i am/have had a job working for my parents or a family relative before.
- for the most part, i really don’t think i am anything that people think that i am.
- i have a hard time letting things go, and forgiving, it takes a lot more effort for me to do so.
- someone who has meant a lot to me before i think after this past week that they finally just used up their last chance of being in my life again.
- i use my cellular more often than an actual camera when taking pictures. only ‘cause i don’t own my own camera anymore.
- i have a habit of fucking shit up for myself.
- and here comes all the feelings catching up to me that i really was trying so hard to not acknowledge let alone deal with.
- someone has hurt my feelings today but they have no idea that they’ve done so.
- everything in my life is changing all at once, it’s seriously happening a lot faster than i anticipated.
- i’m waiting for the day that i am completely over everything that had happened.
- i tend to accidentally call people without meaning to a lot.
- humidity is something that i would be fine with not having to deal with in my life. k thanks.
- my favorite pages to read are the ones with the LOL JK part in them. i think those ones are hilarious.
- i get distracted and lose focus on things really easily, it’s kind of bad.
- i’m really sorry for the hurt that i have and will cause on the people who mean the world to me.
- if i have to wake up early for something i have to set multiple alarms, because one sure as hell won’t wake me up.
- i’m not even gonna lie i’m a really sore loser at games. haha.
- a lot of the time i don’t say things out loud and i keep things to myself.
- i’m constantly daydreaming about something, i swear. i have them more than regular dreams at night.
- i watch the series Army Wives every week, or at least try to.
- someone in my family blows everything that happens to them out of proportion just for the attention it gets them.
- ^that type of shit pisses me off so damn much.
- i don’t live in a neighborhood community or anything like that, my house with some others is on the side of a road.
- i fucking love cookout/grill foods.
- i’m one of those people who take the yearly week vacation to the beach that is close by, for me it’s ocean city.
- the idea of growing up and everything it entails is really terrifying to me now.
- i avoid emotional goodbyes at all costs.
- i feel like i’m waiting for something that might never happen, which is one of the worst feelings ever.
- i really miss little things that came along with someone who used to be in my life, but i don’t miss them.
- i don’t think i could ever do a hairstyle that would involve me having full bangs cut straight across. that shit would drive me crazy.
- i love when an ordinary night/day is changed to amazing by something unexpected happening.
- i love going to the local fairs and carnivals when they are happening.
- my family is what matters most to me in my entire life. (to be honest most is of only my dad)
- i’ve been that girl who made a guy she was with her entire life to the point where i didn’t know who i was without him.
- ^i know better now. and will never let it get that far again.
- dear people on my facebook friends list, i feel the need to thank you all for always playing the state the obvious game with your statuses. you can shut the fuck up now.
- i really actually like pastel colors, i think they’re pretty.
- if i’m wearing something nice and happen to be eating you need to get me a full length bib cause then, and only then, will i be a messy motherfucker.
- i’m so tired of the way people have been talking to me recently.
- it gets really old quick when someone does the same thing multiple times, shit is usually only funny the first time.
- if i don’t recognize a phone number i more than likely won’t answer the phone call.
- i cannot stand when people will talk about somebody else, when they are nowhere even close to being a better person than they are.
- Outback Steakhouses cheesy fries are the shiiiiiit.
- i’m currently waiting for something to arrive that i had ordered online.
- any money that i get from anytime on for the next few weeks or more i’m saving for something.
- there is someone who i’ve had really strong feelings for before but things had a way of never working out for us.
- the only time that i really only give short answers in a text is when i’m upset with you or just in general.
- i think a guy in uniform is really really attractive.
- i’ve never been huge into playing sports.
- the only gaming system that i use is the wii, i love that shit.
- i have plans for memorial day. which is going to a few different cook outs.
- i have a lot of family that is out of state.
- ^and i love when i get to go visit them.
- i have to keep my fan on because my room gets too fucking hot if i turn it off for any amount of time.
- one of my parents is out of state traveling right now.
- strapless bras are really awkward and uncomfortable…i don’t like wearing them much.
- i’m a big fan of breakfast food restaurants.
- there always seems to be something that makes things not work out when i find potential in a member of the opposite sex.
- i really can’t stand pettiness at all.
- i don’t even know why but every little thing has been annoying me today.
- i’m not someone who can’t even hide my emotions, they pour out of me.
- i already have a tan, and i haven’t even laid out or anything to try for it.
- i love lazy days a little too much.
- one of my really good friends every time i’m with her we are always laughing and having a good time. i love it.
- i really love spontaneous gestures and things like that.
- the way that i know when i’m getting tired is how heavy my eyes start feeling to me.
- for me there are some things where there is no middle ground.
- i’m not really simple at all, i’m complicated and i’m a lot to handle.
- i feel as though i go off of the vibes other people have and it sets the tone for how i will be kind of.
- i think that if i don’t tell you, that i will regret it a lot.
- i could really use a wish right now…nawh actually i could really have gone without ever having to hear that song.

2010-06-11T00:59:00.003+08:00

so stoked.
i wanna go to illuma to get a dress like yeah
two dresses actually...
and a set of headphones because my sister is currently coveting over my green earpieces and i dont really fancy those that much so im thinking of passing it over to her
im still quite upset over how things are going to be planned out next week
just hope my daddy lets me out on monday or i will smash my head against a brick wall seriously

PLEASE LA im praying like crazy right now

2010-06-10T23:03:00.005+08:00

hey its going to be the end of the holidays soon before you know it x_x
im going to go crazy with my social studies homework now.....
thinking of completing math when im at church camp because i dont think i have much to do there except talking to some handful of friends there / my sister and going to the gym

and of course i will leave a text occasionally ok dear?

i think all i had to do was to see you again
even though its only the afternoon, everything felt better

used to

2010-06-10T22:04:00.001+08:00

we used to have this figured out;
we used to breathe without a doubt.
when nights were clear, you were the first star that I'd see.
we used to have this under control.
we never thought.
we used to know.
at least there's you, and at least there's me.
can we get this back?
can we get this back to how it used to be?

- used to, daughtry

2010-06-09T23:52:00.003+08:00

hello everyone. im pretty much reminiscing last december.... i had a whole carton of soya milk to myself and downloading albums just to listen on long rides. back in december its because i was scared i wouldnt have new songs to listen to on the plane. turns out that i realised that kanye wests songs were so awesome that i did not touch my mp3 at all (and thus downloading 808s and heartbreak when i came home hahahahaha)

these days im lazy to post out properly. life is survivable i guess. you dont see me flying off a building yet so yeah

im just.... you know. i have personal things i need to solve myself. and apparently im confiding in people less these days i dont know if its good or not.
i think i like to keep things to my own brain.

i missed how close i used to be with everyone though, and sharing everyday worries and new adventures with them. but now probably it wouldnt work out for me that way.

xxxx

2010-06-09T18:19:00.001+08:00

this is a complex feeling.
if you ask me to describe how its like i can never tell you

2010-06-06T22:12:00.003+08:00

i cry so much on a regular basis i think i can fill an aquarium already hahahaha

i really really really dont want to go for church camp blahhhhhhhhhh 3 days you know i cant really text / meet my hon sigh

so it will be pretty much a more lonely period than now i guess those 3 days
especially since im usually on my own

);

2010-06-05T17:34:00.003+08:00

i find disney's sleeping beauty kiss most appealing to me ;)
i was looking around at some of the pictures and i was like wtf sleeping beauty is damn gorgeous when she was unconscious compared to snow white
and the castle where she was lying in i was like omggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg what a deserted place

<33333333333333 i will watch again later

2010-06-03T22:53:00.002+08:00

thinking of changing my url by my birthday. or on my birthday itself
already thought of the name, i only need to wait hahaha

2010-06-02T16:17:00.002+08:00

i realised the fog/haze has kinda cleared up
todays a beautiful day but i cant go out boohoohoo
but it makes me feel happier i feel like i could do anything in the world right now
eg. homework and mass playing of the neopets altador cup thing
on days like these please remind me to go on a bus ride
i miss my sweetheart i think i can see a part of toa payoh from here
i wish i had super powers or telepathy or something

ya know ya know ya know

2010-06-02T00:22:00.002+08:00

You’re not allowed to lie, OK?
ok!

Did anyone hurt you in the past couple days?
guess not

Who was the last girl that called you?
banana 1

Does she mean anything to you?
millions

Have you had sex today?
nope

Do you still care about your last ex?
no

Look in your call log, who was your last phone call from?
hun

If you could go back in time and change things, would you?
some stuff

Does anything on your body hurt right now?
my tongue

Do you believe love can last forever?
yup

Has anyone had their hand in your pants today?
nope

What should you be doing right now?
sleeping? i dont know

What’s bothering you?
wont tell you wont tell anyone

Do you own more then one bathing suit?
no i only own one

Has anyone told you they loved you today?
yeah

Do you have siblings?
a sister

Last person you talked to in person?
daddy

Do you think someone’s thinking about you?
hope so

What made you the happiest today?
a text i received from my dad even though we were in the same place the morning

What’s the closest pink thing near you?
a parker pen

Are you happy with how life is going for you?
no but what the heck nothings perfect

Is there anyone in particular that you’re missing right now?
yeah badly

Do you believe in God?
yes

In the last 6 months can you say you truly cared about someone?
yeah

Are you happier now than you were five months ago?
definitely

Name one of your favorite colors?
midnight blue

When’s the last time you were outside in the rain?
the afternoon

Do you have feelings for someone?
you dont call them feelings

What is your hair looking like right now?
flat

Have you ever been to a Britney Spears concert?
nope

Did you sleep alone last night?
yes

Is tomorrow gonna be a good day?
not very likely

Are you dating the last person you kissed?
yes

Are you currently wanting any piercings or tattoos?
yes i want my ears pierced and a heart at the back of my neck

Is there someone on your mind that shouldn’t be?
no theyre kept away

What’s on your bed right now?
pillow, tissue box, 2 blankets, aircon remote, water bottle, school skirt, baby cloth, my toy dog rover and two pieces of brassieres

Are you looking forward to something as of right now?
next i see him as always

Ever been called babe/baby?
yes

Say you were given an alcohol test right now, would you pass?
yes

Have you ever kissed the last person you talked to on the phone?
ya

Today did you see ‘that someone’ that makes you happy?
no

Who do you hug everyday?
dont hug everyday

Do you like tight or loose clothes better?
both are fine

What clothing style do you like on the opposite sex?
so long as it looks alright on them

Are you on a laptop?
nope

Do you text more girls, or guys?
balance

Would you consider yourself good looking?
nope

Who is your last text from?
hun

Favourite clothing store?
hush puppies

What colour is your hair?
black

Why aren’t you dating the person you like?
because im dating the person i love

If you could visit anywhere, where would you go and why?
sunderland =) dont know why i just do

What’s your favourite band?
the used

Do you have a formspring?
nope

What would you say is your best feature?
shoulders

Favorite movie?
got a few

How much £££ do you have?
errrrrr if converted ill probably have 3

Are you a vegetarian?
no

Favourite place to be?
his arms

Do you get good grades?
used to ._.

Playing the field, or serious relationship?
relationship

Do you like flirting?
used to

What do you hear right now?
soccer commentary

Favourite sport to watch?
soccer

Do you ever read the ingredients on food labels?
all the time

Do you like Paramore?
some songs

How about Twilight?
i like the film, didnt like the book

Justin Bieber?
bah

Are you manipulative?
no

Sexiest thing on the opposite sex?
character

Meanest thing someone’s ever done to you?
to totally mislead my heart

Would you rather have one best friend or surrounded by acquaintances?
one best

What kind of phone do you have?
sony ericsson candy bar super old spare

What kind of phone do you want?
a new phone. ANYTHING newer than this

When’s your birthday?
20th july

Do you like Classic Rock?
yup

Rap?
yes

Are you gay?
errrrr no

Someone random person comes up and tells you you’re sexy, you say?
smile and deny

Favorite candy?
sour

White vs black?
black

Hot face or hot body?
hot face

Ever been hit on by someone older?
yes

What state were you born in?
living in a country without any state

Long or short hair?
for my hair? medium

2010-05-29T22:35:00.001+08:00

look bitch, stop being a princess. my eyes are not for you to infect and bleed.

2010-05-29T00:14:00.002+08:00

im now trying to finish up my homework early and decided on the social studies homework
and im reading up on northern ireland and the conflict there
i dont think much has got into my brain boohoohoo

hey sweet i miss you.
i dont care how many people go against it or doubt this relationship,
so long as you and i know how strong this is its ok

i wont say forever because the word forever is such a broken promise itself
so ill say i will love you for as long as i possibly can
and work and hope it will go on to the death

this time, i mean it

2010-05-28T13:54:00.002+08:00

singapore is so bloody hot
i think in no time people will start wearing bikinis and fuck care about being conservative and walk around outside complaining about this massive hell of a weather

right?

2010-05-28T13:21:00.003+08:00

hello yes i am motherfucking hungry
i want french friesssssssssssss, nasi lemak, soya bean milk, a bigass container of orange juice.

on top of that, i need a new pair of earplugs / headphones and dove shampoo.

SUCH IS LIFE

2010-05-28T09:45:00.001+08:00

HELLO
the past 2 days ive been sleeping from afternoons til the next morning.
skipped pretty much my dinners.
i think im losing a bit of weight now but then blueeeeeeeeeekkkkkkkkkk
no time to go online and do nonsense or smth like that
its holidays now
i think i can manage at least a day per week to see dear but cant be guaranteed );
as usual im probably staying home about 70% of the time or something.....

2010-05-25T21:32:00.001+08:00

i dont think i can go out much during the holidays
sigh

2010-05-25T19:45:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DARLING :3
i looooooooooooooooooooove you very much

2010-05-24T19:44:00.001+08:00

every teen will definitely at some point of time consider ending their own lives.
i think i consider this too many a time

2010-05-23T00:39:00.004+08:00

| wallflower |
[ ] i don’t really have any friends.
[x] i spend a lot of time at home.
[ ] i don’t fear being alone.
[x] no one really knows me because nobody tries to.
[x] i can see the world for what it really is, beautiful and ugly.
[ ] i only go to school for education/because i have to.
[ ] i really am a great person once you get to know me.
[ ] i don’t often go to dances or other school social functions.
total: 3

| rich kid |
[x] i’m under the age of 18.
[ ] it honestly bothers me when i don’t get what i want.
[ ] my house has more than six bedrooms.
[ ] i never do chores.
[ ] i don’t really give a shit about the homeless.
[ ] i have my own car.
[ ] i wear brands that are usually pretty costly.
[ ] i can definitely be egocentric.
total: 1

| hipster |
[x] i listen to bands that no one’s ever heard of.
[ ] my hair can be described as ‘complicated’ … mainly because i don’t wash it often.
[x] i spend a lot of money to look like i don’t have any money.
[x] i major/want to major in art or writing.
[ ] i name drop all the time.
[ ] i dye my hair frequently.
[ ] my closet seems to be full of the same three outfits, particularly very tight black pants.
[ ] i hate being called a hipster.
total: 3

| video game nerd |
[x] i’m always playing video games on different formats.
[x] i spend way more money on video games than clothes.
[x] i’m very passionate about the things/people that i love.
[ ] i own an item of clothing with a video game character on it.
[ ] most of my friends (and i do have them) play video games.
[x] when i was a kid, i used to play a quick game on an old video game console before school.
[ ] i have written a walkthrough for a video game.
[x] i enjoy anything that has to do with video game characters.
total: 5

| average |
[ ] i still watch classic disney movies.
[ ] the teenage mutant ninja turtles are more than a fad.
[x] fml < mlia.
[x] i would love it if someone proposed to me with a green lantern ring.
[x] the littlest things make me happy.
[x] harry potter and the chronicles of narnia kick ass!
[ ] i own a light saber.
[ ] i’m a ninja or a pirate.
total: 4

| regular chick/dude |
[ ] my hair changes with my moods.
[ ] i hang out with friends on a regular basis.
[x] i screw up on words all the time when i speak.
[ ] i don’t think i fit into a stereotype.
[x] i own a cell phone and some kind of mp3 player.
[x] i have a profile on at least one social networking site.
[x] i actually love to eat. maybe too much.
total: 4

| kid at heart |
[ ] i don’t let much get to me.
[x] my only goal of the day is to have fun with people i love.
[x] cartoons are great, no matter what age you are.
[ ] i feel content when i’m playing with children.
[ ] oftentimes, i prefer kids to adults.
[x] i genuinely enjoy reading children’s picture books.
[ ] i see the world with big, bright, open eyes.
[x] i don’t think there should really be ‘age limits’ on anything.
total: 4

| troublemaker |
[x] i’m always in trouble somehow.
[ ] i’ve been kicked out of class before.
[x] i’m pretty unstable, mentally and physically.
[x] i don’t really care about responsibility.
[ ] i pull pranks all the time.
[x] my friends and i just like to hang out and goof off.
[ ] somehow, people find me sexy.
[ ] i don’t think of the consequences, i just do whatever i want.
total: 4

| boy/girl crazy |
[x] when i get dressed, i always think about what other what my preferred gender would think of my outfit.
[x] i have a bunch of exes.
[ ] i seem to only talk about love and relationships with people.
[ ] i update my facebook status a lot with, “i ♥ you, [significant other’s name]!”
[x] i constantly take love/relationship surveys.
[ ] when i go to a social gathering, i seem to talk about how cute all the guys/girls are there.
[ ] i’m always looking for a new person to crush on.
[ ] i love watching romantic movies and imagining if i met someone like the main actor/actress.
total: 3

2010-05-22T18:34:00.001+08:00

i feel like selling my wii and use the money for an xbox 360.
or trade.
or whatever.
so long as i get an xbox 360 because on weds or thurs i was playing forza motorsport on an xbox 360 demo in comics connection and had dear to wait patiently until i satisfied sorry dear )=

2010-05-20T18:37:00.002+08:00

so ive failed about 5 subjects today.. both maths, elect geog, social studies and chinese.
on a brighter note i passed 3, english, literature and physics.

i worked pretty hard im sure );
i did expect to fail math but not this bad i feel bloody horrible just thinking about my single digit a math result
gives me another reason to retain or to not go through o's just because of my math
i cant even pass one

never mind i need to have this mindset to work harder the rest of the two terms otherwise im gone

2010-05-19T22:26:00.002+08:00

next time i go anchorpoint.....
i need to return my finished 'a wide window' book
and buy another book 'wuthering heights'
and buy some other stuff i need to buy too omg life is stressful

i love you
but i wish you had more confidence in me

2010-05-17T21:59:00.003+08:00

i looked at a picture on tumblr
it reminded me how happy and how lucky i actually am
and im not supposed to be sad over trivial things because this has been one of the best things that happened to me

at first it could look retarded
but then if you notice, both are in love

2010-05-16T00:11:00.003+08:00

Are you available?
relationship wise, no

How late did you stay up last night and why?
about 1 30 - 2 30 am. i was playing nightclub city until i got tired hahaha

Has anyone ever told you they were in love with you?
yes

Who was the last person to text you?
aloyyyyyyyyyyyyy

Ever heard the saying “to get over someone, get under someone else”?
yup i dont think it works though

Five months ago, can you remember who you liked?
oh yeah i do -_-

Do you find smoking unattractive?
nope

If you could make your lips bigger, would you?
not really i rather change its colour

Are you currently frustrated with a boy or girl?
nope

Are you one of those people who just don’t care?
yeah depends on what the situation is actually

Which is worse, missing someone or not having some one to miss?
not having someone to miss

Do you think you could be with someone for over four years?
in fact, im trying

How long do you think it takes to fall in love with someone?
no one knows. its only realised eventually

Have you done something recently that you regret?
nope what for regret when you cant do anything about it?

Ever cried while you were on the phone with someone?
yes

When is the last time you actually hung out with your best friend(s)?
cant really remember

Do you trust your gut instincts?
no not really

What annoys you the most?
when people lie that something happened to them when nothing happened at all and especially if the lie is worrying

How much longer until your birthday?
about 2 months

Have you spoke to your ex today?
no

Hows your relationship between yourself and your parents?
quite alright

Do you think you will be in a relationship three months from now?
i really hope so

What are you looking forward to?
the day i see him

When’s your birthday?
20th july

Can you commit to one person?
yes im committing

Do you remember the first time you kissed the last person you kissed?
ahahaha his bedroom while watching a movie with the word 'rock' in it online

When was the last time you talked to your best friend?
yesterday

What is the thing you miss most about your most recent ex?
actually ive kinda forgotten everything about that person

Who was the last person of the opposite sex you talked to?
aloyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

What restaurant do you think has the Best French Fries?
long john silver / mac

When is the last time you held hands with someone?
yesterday

If you woke up as the opposite gender, what’s the 1st thing you would do?
wonder if ive really gotten a boner

Things about the opposite sex you notice first?
hair

Are you currently excited?
no not really

Do you fall for people easily?
i fall in infatuation easily, love no

Can you recall the last time you liked someone a lot?
no

Is there someone who has made a difference in your life?
yes

Why aren’t you dating the last person who text you?
i am dating the last person who texted me

Will your next kiss be a mistake?
never

What were you doing at 8:00 this morning?
sleeping

Would you put yesterday on repeat and live it forever?
yes but if so i would need to watch iron man 2 and the backup plan a million times over

Last time you laughed super hard? And Why?
cant remember

How many people do you fully trust?
about 4 - 5

Do you think the last person you kissed is nice?
the nicest kind

Did anyone see you kiss the last person you kissed?
errrrr dont think so

Are you afraid of falling in love?
no

In your opinion which is the stronger emotion: love or hate?
love. hate is equivalent to love in my opinion

If you were granted one wish, what would you wish for?
to be happy

Last night you felt?
happy

Does anyone know your password besides you?
which password?

What’re you wearing right now?
09' choir tee, primary school shorts and er underwear

2010-05-15T23:20:00.002+08:00

grabbed from weiai =)

LAYER 1: ON THE OUTSIDE.

Name: pamela
Birth Date: 20th july 95'
Current Location: singapore, in front of my computer screen
Hair Color: raven black
Righty/Lefty: righty

LAYER 2: ON THE INSIDE.

Your fear: death
Your dream of the perfect date: so long as its with hun its perfect
Goals you’d like to achieve: get married before i die

LAYER 3: YESTERDAY, TODAY, TOMORROW.

Your thoughts first waking up: yawn first, shit later
Your best physical feature: my shoulders i guess
Your bed time: when i sleep i sleep

LAYER 4: YOUR PICK.

Pepsi or Coke: pepsi
McDonald’s or Burger King: burger king
Single or Group Dates: single
Adidas or Nike: adidas
Chocolate or Vanilla: vanilla
Cappuccino or Coffee: coffee

LAYER 5: DO YOU.

Smoke: i think i quitted
Cuss: yes
Take showers: yes
Have a crush: not a crush anymore
Like(d) school: yes
Believe in yourself: no
Believe what goes around comes around: no it has never happened
Believe everything happens for a reason: yes
Think you’re a health freak: in some places

LAYER 6: IN THE PAST MONTH.

Gone to the mall: yes
Been on stage: no
Eaten sushi: yes
Been hurt: yes
Dyed your hair: no

LAYER 7: HAVE YOU EVER.

Played a stripping game: yes
Kissed the same sex: yes
Got beaten up: no
Changed who you were to fit in: yes

LAYER 8: GETTING OLD.

Age you’re hoping to be married by: by 23
Number of kids you’re planning on having: none

LAYER 9: IN A GIRL/GUY.

Best eye color: errrrrr brown?
Best hair color: not much of a preference so long as its not black like mine )=
Short or long hair: errrrr whatever looks good on the person
Fat or fit: dont go for weight
Looks or personality: personality
Fun or serious: depends on the situation

LAYER 10: WHAT WERE YOU DOING.

1 MINUTE AGO: this
1 HOUR AGO: bathing
1 WEEK AGO: studying for math paper
1 YEAR AGO: errrrr moping over somebody i think

LAYER 11: FINISH THE SENTENCE.

I FEEL: lonely
I HATE: fleas
I HIDE: a diary
I NEED: hun over here );
I LOVE: you-know-who

2010-05-14T21:52:00.000+08:00

the fourth, red rose
i love you sweetheart happy 3rd month! =3

you mean the entire world to me

2010-05-13T18:01:00.001+08:00

i dont think ill get to live til 21.

2010-05-10T20:35:00.001+08:00

my most coveted over harry potter full collection cost $144. );
daddy said he will get it for me
i want to cry i tell you
i know sometimes he spoils me so bad just so ill love him more

2010-05-08T15:07:00.001+08:00

i am hopelessly in love.
all the more makes me scared to lose you.

i want to go to a park, read a book, enjoy some ice cream.

2010-05-06T21:36:00.003+08:00

hey hello im using my sisters computer for a while to update a little about my drag, boring, mundane life.
can never study in my room. always distracted by my computer so im here. in my sisters room.
i had gone through a lot of fuck about conservation and i realise that that kind of question isnt going to be bloody tested that one was just an exercise so yeah
die lor like that!!!
now a bit kanchiong now reading all i can about rivers and tributaries and stuff
it would be easier if we all did our essays and shit like that on microsoft word or something...... see ive typed a lot of stuff here in under a 5 minute interval.
by which if i were to spend 5 minutes writing something, it will (at most) go up to like 1/5 of what i wrote here now.
ok bb.
i miss dearrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
though i just saw him today

); -sniff-

2010-05-05T21:28:00.003+08:00

Do you and your boyfriend/girlfriend fight a lot?
no

Have your parents ever told you that you couldn’t hang out with a certain person?
errrr i think so

What were you doing at 10am?
taking my medis

Who was the last person you got in a fight with? About what?
i think i forgot

Would you ever take someone back if they cheated on you?
depends on who

Did you go to sleep happy last night?
no

Do you continue fighting in an argument even though you’re wrong?
no i will run out of ideas halfway

Have you ever slept in contacts?
dont wear them

Have you seen the movie Thirteen?
no. is it like a horror movie?

Miss someone?
yes very much

Are you excited about anything?
seeing him tomorrow if i get to see him tomorrow

Did you kiss or hug anyone today?
no

This time last year, can you remember who you liked?
yeah

How late did you stay up last night?
i think about 12 or smth. woke up randomly many times after that

Who was the last person you cried in front of?
aloy Dx

Have you lost contact with someone you wish you didn’t?
yes but fuck that

Do you think you are a good person?
i think im ok

What will you be doing in 3 hours?
sleeping

Does anyone call you babe/baby?
yes

Are you a patient person?
depends on what im waiting for

What are you listening to?
'monster' - lady gaga

Any plans for tomorrow?
go to school and mope

What should you be doing instead of filling this out?
studying my geog but i gave up

Are you in a complicated relationship right now?
depends on what you mean

Do you think people actually read these surveys?
i think so

If you have a boyfriend/girlfriend, how long have you guys been together?
2 months and 3 weeks

Have you ever broken anything because you were mad?
yup

Do you trust your gut instinct?
sometimes

Has anyone ever seen you in your underwear?
yes

When you’re home alone do you still close the door when you shower?
yes

Are you going to have a baby by the time you’re 18?
dont think so

Do you own a pair of skinny jeans?
yes

Do you smoke cigarettes, it’s a bad habit you know?
omfg really??????? i didnt know!!!!1111

2010-05-04T18:47:00.001+08:00

omg i took the harry potter house quiz and i belong in hufflepuff yay!

aloyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy gohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh do you know how much i miss you );

2010-05-02T23:58:00.000+08:00

i love you more than anyone will ever know. anyone. im serious.

2010-05-01T18:34:00.002+08:00

i think im going for a movie marathon for this long weekend and have some movie breaks in between. during these breaks i shall be studying so alls good.
dont know what to really watch though ive seen pretty much most movies i have been sort of dying to watch already
i think i shall watch juno and the pursuit of happyness

2010-05-01T13:57:00.002+08:00

fishkiller! says:
*SHOW ME YOUR TEETH
*lol your dp so act cute

- SHADDIE ♥ aloyyyyyy says:
*but ok right i pin hair

fishkiller! says:
*ok la
*but your eyes very mr ng

- SHADDIE ♥ aloyyyyyy says:
*i know

fishkiller! says:
*O_O

- SHADDIE ♥ aloyyyyyy says:
*but is it better than covering my eyes or cover eyes better

fishkiller! says:
*former

- SHADDIE ♥ aloyyyyyy says:
*cover eyes better???

fishkiller! says:
*no the first one
*..

- SHADDIE ♥ aloyyyyyy says:
*oh
*YAY
*ok i pin up hair

fishkiller! says:
*diao
*k good

- SHADDIE ♥ aloyyyyyy says:
*i become from emo to scene liao

fishkiller! says:
*good to open the curtains and show the sunshine once in awhile

- SHADDIE ♥ aloyyyyyy says:
*oh my eyes are molten pools of sunshine

fishkiller! says:
*=_=

- SHADDIE ♥ aloyyyyyy says:
*BUAHAHAAHHA
*ok blog this

fishkiller! says:
*dowan

- SHADDIE ♥ aloyyyyyy says:
*ok i blog this

fishkiller! says:
*ok

doesnt help we are only one room away from each other

2010-04-30T20:25:00.002+08:00

Bold what's true:

I’m loud.
I’m obnoxious.
I’m sarcastic.
I’m cocky.
I cry easily.
I have a bad temper.
For the most part, I don’t like people.
I’m easy to get along with.
I like to fight.
I have more enemies than friends.
I’ve smoked.
I’ve smoked weed.
I drink coffee.
I clean my room daily.

My Appearance -

I’m shorter than 5’5.
I wear makeup.
I wear a piece of jewelry at all times.
I wear contacts.
I wear glasses.
I’ve had braces.
I have braces.
I change my hair color often.
I straighten my hair often.
My ears are pierced.
I have small feet.

Relationships -

I’m in a relationship now.
I’m single.
I’m crushin’.
I’ve missed an ex before.
I’m always scared of being hurt.
An ex has physically abused me at least once.
I’ve told someone I loved them when I didn’t.
I’ve told someone I didn’t love them when I did.
I’ve been in love more than two times.
I believe in love at first sight.
I believe lust is more important than love.

Friendships -

I have a best friend.
I have at least ten friends.
I’ve gotten a phone call in the last 48 hours from a friend.
I’ve beaten up a friend.
I’ve been in a serious fight with a friend.
I can trust at least five people with my life.

Experiences -

I’ve been on a plane.
I’ve been on a train.
I’ve left the state/province.
Someone close to me has died.
I’ve taken a taxi.
I’ve taken a city bus.
I’ve taken a school bus.
I’ve gone bungee jumping.
I’ve made a speech.
I’ve been in some sort of club.
I’ve won an award.
I’ve spent 24 hours on the computer straight.
I’ve been in a physical fight.

Music -

I listen to country.
I listen to some pop.
I listen to techno.
I listen to rock.
I’m one of those people who play songs repeatedly until I hate it.
I hate the radio.
I download music.
I buy CD’s.

Television -

I spend at least six hours a day watching television.
I watch soap operas daily.
I’m in love with Days Of Our Lives.
I’ve seen and like The OC.
I’ve seen and like One Tree Hill.
I’ve seen and like America’s Next Top Model.
I’ve seen and like Popular.
I’ve seen and like House.
I’ve seen and like 24.
I’ve seen and like CSI.
I’ve seen and like Everwood.

Family Life -

I get along with both of my parents.
My biological parents are still together.
I have at least one brother.
I have at least one sister.
I have at least one step brother/sister.
I have at least one half brother/sister.
I’ve been kicked out of the house.
I’ve ran away from my home.
I’ve sworn at my parents.
I’ve made my parents cry.
I’ve lied to my parents.
I’ve lied to my parents about where I am.
I’ve lied to my parents about what I’m doing.
I’ve lied to my parents so I’d be allowed out.
I’ve walked out when I’ve been grounded.

Hair -

I’ve cut my hair in the past year.
I’ve dyed my hair in the past year.
I’ve been blonde.
I’ve had black.
I’ve been red.
I’ve been medium brown.
I’ve been brown.
I’ve had streaks.
I’ve been light brown.
I’ve had purple/pink.
I’ve been blue/green.
I’ve gotten my hair thinned.
I use conditioner.
I’ve used silk therapy.
I’ve used hot oil treatments.
I’ve curled my hair.
I’ve straightened my hair.
I’ve ironed my hair.
I’ve braided my hair.
I’ve had/want dreadlocks.

School -

I’ve thrown something at a teacher.
I’ve yelled at a teacher.
I’ve been suspended.
I’ve had an in-school suspension.
I’ve been sent to the principal’s office.
I’ve walked out of class.
I’ve skipped an entire day of school.
I’ve skipped a whole month of one certain class.
I’ve failed a test.
I’ve cheated on a test.
I’ve helped someone else cheat on a test.
I’ve failed Art.
I’ve failed P.E.
I’ve failed Math.
I’ve failed Science.
I’ve failed another class.
A teacher has called my parents.
I’ve been caught skipping.

2010-04-29T22:04:00.001+08:00

i miss you very much,
but you dont need me to tell you that, do you?

2010-04-27T19:33:00.001+08:00

caught sore throat and slight flu argh not again
dear ahbeng liao!!!!!! asdfghjkl love you

love is a weird thing.

2010-04-25T20:07:00.004+08:00

love is a weird thing.

it will make you stand in the middle of nowhere. crowds scurrying around you. the only things you can think of are the memories of that special person. the memories of how you first met him, how you got to know him better, how you become what you call "close" to him, how he starts to point out your mistakes to keep you in check, how you laugh when you talk to him, how you run through different scenes of worry when he was somewhere else you didnt know of, how the rush felt when he talked to you again after a long time, how shocked you feel when he tells you he loves you all along, how mutual the feeling between the both of you is, how you both get together, how the new journey feels with him, how the first tears roll because of the interceptions of this new journey, how you lose him, how painful it is to go on a while without him, how much you realise you want him back and the fact that it will run hell for your emotions because he is not there to take care of your heart, how you get him back, how happy you are now, although the beautiful wall of content is shattered somewhat.

i think everything will be worth it in the end. its worth it now. i miss you.

2010-04-24T17:02:00.002+08:00

Bold what is true:

my appearance-

my hair is not it’s natural color anymore.
i haven’t grown any since i was in middle school.
i weigh less then 110 pounds.
i’m currently really pale, but i tan so easily in summer.
my skin breaks out bad when i’m really stressed out.
i’m constantly being told i have pretty eyes by people.
i smile all the time.
it doesn’t take much at all to have me laughing.
people compliment me a lot for my outfits and stuff.
i will not leave my house looking a mess, not ever.
i don’t wear any kind of make up. ever.
with my emotions you can pretty much read me like a book.
i have a tattoo.

some flaws that i have-

i don’t think before i say things, so it gets me in trouble.
i don’t take well to not getting my way, and my behavior gets out of line.
i tend to assume the worst about things and then i blow it out of proportion..and it’s just bad.
forgiveness is so hard for me, i can’t forgive myself and i can’t forgive you either.
i can be really selfish, and i hate it about myself.
once someone hurts me i stop caring and for some reason think thats enough justification to do worse by them.
there always seems to be something on my mind, my mind doesn’t ever shut down.
i can’t ever let things be, i always read too into things.
i don’t think anyone can do worse by me, i’m my own worst enemy.
i don’t even realise so much of the things i do.
i have some ridiculous mood swings, they can get really bad.
i get into these awful emotional ruts, and they are the absolute worst.

some dumbshit that i’ve done before.
had sex with someone that i didn’t even have feelings for.
snuck out of my house.
snuck a member of the opposite sex into my house.
stolen from someone close to me.
technically stolen someones car for a few hours.
purchased a large amount of weed to blaze with a group of friends.
came home waaaaaasted.
covered for a friend where if found out police could have been called.
drove around on main highways with a illegal vehicle.
driven without any kind of practice, permit or licsense.
made someone close to me cry.
shoplifted more than $100 worth of shit from one store.
ordered food for delivery and paid the entire bill and tip in change.
played a meeean prank on someone who was interested in one of my friends.

about relationships i have with people who mean the most to me-

i tend to get to points in time where i just push everyone away from me.
my family and i are really fucking close, with the exception of me and my dad.
i have two best friends, one is a girl and one is a boy.
i’ve lost a lot of people throughout my life, i swear more than most people.
it doesn’t matter how close i am to you, i have the hardest time opening up.
i have horrible luck when it comes to relationships like dating and shit.
i’m so scared at the thought of losing someone who i hold close to my heart.
i feel bad for it…but i get really easily annoyed with people.
i’ve not given two shits for someone for a while and then later in time i got to getting a long with them.
^ that type stuff happens a whole lot to me.
i tend to act like whoever i am around. it’s not trying to be fake. or me not being “my own person” it’s just how i get.
when i’m completely comfortable with someone i’m a smartass and like giving people hell. lol.
no questions asked i would do anything for my friends and my family.

my lifestyle-

i spent a whole lot of my time growing up at one of my relatives houses.
^ and i consider there more like home then my actual house and shit.
i want to settle down in a small town i’m pretty sure.
i wanna live in a little cute house with wrap around porch has rocking chair and porch swing. <—- that would be nice for a vacation home.
i want one marriage, to get it right the first time. and grow old with the love of my life.
i know for a fact that i want at least one kid.
i want to be moved out of my parents house before i turn 25 years old.
i’ve always lived in the same county the same home all of my life.
i don’t plan to stay living in my hometown my whole life or moving back ever once i leave.
i would love to be the housewife taking care of the house and kids, but i want a job to support myself also.
my parents raised me in a southern way.[i don’t know if that’s worded well.]
i will make sure that my kids are raised to be well mannered and respectful for sure.
i more so excited about my future than i am scared about it.
i can’t wait especially to start my own family.

things that make me smile-

any kind of lame joke, they usually will have me laughing.
cute little kids.
seeing someone else laughing, especially when they have a contagious laugh.
having money to blow, and going shopping with it.
when you think you did awful on a quiz and turns out you passed it.
dippin dots ice cream.
the feeling you get when you are around the person you like.
coming across people who have manners.
recieving more than one compliment in one day.
when someone says something to you that makes you go “awh.”
reliving a memory in your mind that afterwards you realise leaves you smiling or laughing.
seeing something and thinking automatically it belongs to be a photograph.
stepping outside to a beautiful day.
when you realize that you won at something.
the feeling of sand between your toes.
when your counting down to something and it gets to single digit days until.

things that i can’t stand-

when someone who you really care for says they will text or call you and they don’t.
when someone tries to give their opinion on you when they don’t know you enough to do so.
when things are going really good for you but awful for someone who is close to you.
when people don’t assert any sort of discipline on their children and they are just out of control.
when you always have to be the bigger person in a situation when it comes to a particular person.
indecisiveness.
when someone thinks that decisions can be made based on their opinions without the consideration of the other person when it involves both of you.
when people say “i don’t know” all the time instead of offering their explanation that they obviously have.
when you can see through a person, but for whatever reason everyone else doesn’t see it.
when an artist/band does a cover for a song when it should have just been left alone.
the fact that certain people are made examples of on problems that happen all the time and no other person catches hell for it.
when someone does something fucked up and doesn’t think that i will find out about it.

2010-04-22T23:26:00.001+08:00

this evening i saw a rainbow.
it was really pretty.

2010-04-19T19:46:00.001+08:00

everytime a friend writes something bad about someone, i keep having this gut feeling its referring to me.
either its paranoia, or its maybe because im really what they talk about.

im sure you all have this feeling before, right?

2010-04-18T22:14:00.004+08:00

randomly thought of this.
during the june holidays/july period, i want:

- extensions for my fringe
- look for a new bed
- get my phone repaired
- renew my contract (possible to get a new phone) on the july 10th
- dark blue hairspray
- shopping spree for tops, denims and sneakers
- an ipod like yeah
- to study
- to tell my parents i have a boyfriend

2010-04-17T23:44:00.003+08:00

Have you spoke to any of your exs today?
no

Do you miss your past?
some parts of it

Is there anybody that you wish you could fix things with?
now? i think not

How many months until your birthday?
about 3 months

Does it matter if the person you like drinks?
nope not at all!

Who last called you?
amanda

Have you ever done something you told yourself you wouldn’t do?
yep

How many more minutes until you will eat next?
i think around 15 more minutes

Have you ever crawled through a window?
i think not

Do you remember who you liked in August?
yes i do

Think of the last person you told “I love you” to, did you mean it?
cant be any more honest

Would you rather give up the computer or the TV?
tv

Did your mom or dad ever put soap in your mouth?
nope

Will you be over 21 in 2012?
nope

What were you doing at midnight last night?
sleeping

Would you feel comfortable with short hair, or do you prefer long hair?
whatever that looks better

Let me guess, your single?
wrong

Is the last person you kissed yours?
yes =)

Are you going to get hurt by a girl/guy anytime soon?
i hope i wont

What are your plans for tonight?
just to eat

Name something you dislike about the day you’re having?
that i cant see him longer

Did you sleep alone last night?
yes

Is there anything in your room that reminds you of past memories?
my diary and some pretty letters and memorabilia and stuff kept in a drawer

Were you single on your last birthday?
yes

Have you ever been awake for 2 days straight?
yup

Ever really cried your heart out?
just today

What are you listening to right now?
the commentary of a soccer match playing outside

Do you believe ex’s can be friends?
depends on which ex

When was the last time you wanted to punch someone in their face?
oh just this afternoon

Are you scared of spiders?
yes

Are you currently frustrated with a boy or girl?
nope

Have you ever been under the influence of alcohol in Mexico?
er no havent been there

Where are you?
at home

Have you ever kissed the last person you sent a message to?
cheeks yes, lips no

Who might that be?
er amanda

Think back to this time last year, were you happy?
yeah i was. i was in a new relationship

What can’t you wait for?
the next day i see him

Why?
because i see him =)

Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?
i guess so

Do you need to talk to someone right now?
im talking to someone right now

Do you miss someone?
definitely

Would you call yourself smart?
maybe. but when it comes to logic im dumb

Do you honestly have any feelings at ALL for anyone?
duh

Do you know anyone named Holly?
no

Are you easy to get along with?
i think so. but im shy ><

Is there anybody you wish you could be spending time with right now?
yes now now now sigh

Do you tend to fall for the same type of person over and over?
not really

Remember the first time you kissed the last person you kissed?
his bedroom

Do you have a reason to smile right now?
yes

Does anyone completely understand you?
i think so

Say you had a baby with the last person you kissed?
need to get money to abort

Do you still talk to the last person you kissed?
im talking to him now

Do you think you will be in a relationship two months from now?
i hope so in the same relationship as of now

Honestly, has anyone seen you in your underwear in the past three months?
yes

Do you think anyone has feelings for you?
yeah

Do you still talk to the person who broke your heart the most?
cant really judge who broke my heart the most actually

Do you have someone who you can be your complete self around?
hun =)

Do you want to start over with anyone?
not really

Think to the last person you kissed, have you ever kissed them on a bed?
yes

Who was the last person you slept next to?
hunnnnnnnnn

Is the last person you kissed a virgin?
;)

Would you rather be in a permanent relationship or play the field?
permanent

Have you ever felt replaced?
i dont really care when it comes to replacement

Are any of your friends virgins?
pretty much a majority

Would you have sex with someone you’ve known for just an hour?
no

Is there someone who you’re attracted to?
obviously

Who were you dating this time last year?
zeeman

Do you want your ex to be happy, even if it means not being with you?
i dont think about my exes to that extent

Do you have trust issues?
sometimes

Ever kissed someone with a tongue piercing?
no

How old were you when you had your first relationship?
12

How old were you when you had your first kiss?
12

What color is your underwear?
white

Ever had your heartbroken?
many times

Who was the last person you sent a text to?
amanda

Last person to text you?
amanda

Last person you saw?
hunnnnnn

Who do you trust the most in your life?
myself

Who do you love most?
hunnnnnnnnn

Ever been in love?
yup

Who has hurt you the most?
i cant judge

Has a tragedy ever happened in your life?
i think so

Are you happy with where you are relationship- wise now?
very happy

What is your idea of true love?
"you and me"

Do you believe in love at first sight?
only started believing in that the last december

Without saying any names, what something that reminds you about the last person you kissed?
retard

Dare you to tell me the place you had your last kiss?
while waiting for the elevator

Could you stay in a relationship for over a year?
really hope to

Do you know who you’ll even kiss next?
i think i know

Ever kissed a brown hair brown eye person?
yes

Have you ever kissed someone whose name starts with a A?
damn i have mentioned this person about like pretty much this whole survey

If the last person you kissed, saw you kissing someone else, would they be mad?
i guess so

Do your feelings get hurt easily?
yes

2010-04-17T22:17:00.002+08:00

so my sister bought a lock and key necklace (kinda reminds me of bio) i think its really pretty. first time in ages she had gotten something for me. so touched
mid years is coming in around errrrrrr 2 - 3 weeks. one part of me is indifferent, one part of me is utterly nervous. on friday i was penning down my composition as a make up test and i realised i havent been writing for so long my brain juices clogged up somewhere and died. so i was stuck with a blank page for bout 5 minutes before i actually started to write.

im really worried for my math. gotten my test back. another one digit result..... not that i didnt expect this but i had received several comments. a chunk of encouragement by my teacher, some kind of mini lecture by amanda and also a discussion with hon

i thought about my results a lot. the only thing is i dont know how to carry my planning out. i mean i know how to start... only thing is i cannot get to start. its either im too tired, lazy, or just not in that concentrating mode. a pity though because if i do begin, i could get on this for hours. i just cannot.

2010-04-15T20:54:00.001+08:00

in my opinion, this year is getting shittier, and shittier, and shittier.
i think im losing everyone.

but im gonna give you an extra tight hold, and i will resist letting go

2010-04-14T20:11:00.001+08:00

i love you.
yes definitely i do.

happy second month hon :3

2010-04-13T21:03:00.000+08:00

er like seriously?
someone greets you after theyve added you on their friends list, they say hi, if you dont like that then ignore lah.
be honoured that people take the grace and their clicking time to add you. no need to spam your own wall about what you want people to do with your wall or not. ya its your acct but for christs fucking sake do you know whats a filter?

2010-04-12T20:11:00.002+08:00

damn so many things to buy, so many things i need to do over the month, so many things to catch up on. in fact, i shall make a list out of it tomorrow
yes one of those things to do is to get a motherfucking haircut.
me so willingly get a haircut omg!!!!11one
partly is because this guy in a cap today asked me to be a guinea pig to see if the shop cut hair nice because he also want cut hair.
cb right!!!!!!!!!

buahahahaha love you

when he's looking, she falls apart

2010-04-11T10:16:00.002+08:00

stomach churning, head pounding, throat dry, eyes brimmed.

i dont understand a lot of things.
i really hope....

2010-04-10T19:12:00.001+08:00

i have deleted some insignificant posts.
i miss you very much

i want you, all of you.... forever. you and me, everyday.

2010-04-09T19:43:00.002+08:00

to you.
please stop texting me.
please go away.

2010-04-06T19:45:00.002+08:00

dont get me pissed off, bastard.

2010-04-03T11:44:00.002+08:00

i dont mind if youre a close friend and you tell everyone something.
but you havent had one fucking conversation with me before in your entire life.
what gives you the right?

sunny downpour

2010-03-30T17:34:00.004+08:00

im not very much in the mood to do anything today, so im going to watch 500 days of summer after a nice cold bath. maybe get out some milk too. its a warm + freezing day and i bloody hate the rain. i wish i could cab down to his place, wake him up if hes fast asleep, and then get surprised at the fact that he was awake the entire time i thought he was still sleeping, and then finally cuddling next to him on a floor mattress.

<3

2010-03-27T11:14:00.003+08:00

im pamela. im fifteen.
i have a nickname because it helps me run away from reality.
i want things to be perfectly alright.
i love him very much.
i love my friends too.
i havent found my personal goal yet but i feel happy now.
i wish everyday was like yesterday.

2010-03-26T21:38:00.002+08:00

i love you infinitely.
i liked today a lot.
miss you so much.

i feel very happy :)

2010-03-23T19:39:00.003+08:00

it breaks my heart when i dont know how youre
it makes me worry even more
in fact, i even forget about myself and i dont even know what the fuck am i doing these days

im not obsessed. im just concerned.
i dont really know how you feel. the only thing i know is that i love you and you love me back, but beneath the simple truth lies a whole map of complexities
especially regarding the both of us. i shant call this a relationship because currently we re not in a relationship
i keep telling myself i want you back. though i think im not doing much to make that dream come true
im actually more traumatised over this than i look.
im only tired of feeling tired.

you didnt do anything wrong, but why is this so painful when nothings happening at all?

please come back from the reason for being missing in action. i miss you

2010-03-21T21:51:00.000+08:00

this suddenly hit me like a block of wood.

i really miss you a lot.
its been two days since i saw you, but im feeling like i hadnt seen you for the past 2 years.....

5 more days. 5 more days.

2010-03-20T12:17:00.002+08:00

so apparently banana one texted over something that made me laugh and cry at the same time.

2010-03-19T11:11:00.001+08:00

your kiss made the glaring wound hurt a lot less.
thank you for travelling from one end to the other and back again just for breakfast.
i love you.

2010-03-17T02:53:00.000+08:00

im very upset.
im emotionally tired.
i finally understood, but im really very tired.

2010-03-16T22:10:00.002+08:00

Who was the last person you shared a bed with?
aloy g

Would you rather sleep for 3 days, or stay awake for 3 days?
stay awake for 3 days

Would you rather choose truth, or dare while playing “truth or dare”?
dare

Would you rather have 10 kids, or none?
none

Did you go outside for more than 30 minutes today?
yup

Last time you talked to your number one?
errrrrrrr she called me around 1pm today

Do you tend to waste a lot of your money?
yeah i guess

Does it make you mad when people stare at you?
just irritated

What’s your relationship with the person you talked to last?
errrrrrr friends.

Where is your number two person on your friends list?
at home

Do you miss the way things use to be?
yeah especially when things were like about 5 days back

Do you find it easier to forgive or forget?
forgive.

What does the fourth text in your inbox say and who is it from?
ooooops i deleted all my texts

What’s the connection between you and the last person that you kissed?
someone special

What shoes did you wear today?
ballet flats

Are there any saved birthday cards in your bedroom?
yup

How often do you hold back from saying what you are thinking?
id say so so.

The last person you texted is the person a he or a she?
she

Think back to September, were you dating anyone?
no

Last thing you ate?
spaghetti!

Would you rather text or MSN?
msn, makes life cheaper

Purple or green grapes?
purple

Could you go a day without eating?
yes. provided you let me drink soya bean milk and coke of course

Do you wish you were somewhere else right now?
yes...

Have you ever kissed someone who was stoned?
i dont think so

Next time you’ll kiss someone?
sigh i dont know

Do you think you’ll be married in 10 years?
no

Are you wearing underwear?
yes

What colour?
blue

Now for the “Have you ever’s” ready?
errrrrrrr k

Ever walked in on your friends having sex?
no

Ever kissed a friends crush?
ya

Ever kissed in the rain?
ya....

Ever participated in a 3-some?
no

Kissed the last person you kissed more than once?
ya....

Last time you kissed someone, was your hand around their neck?
well yeah

How was your day overall?
quite fucked at the last bit

Ever tackled someone to the ground?
ya ahhahahahah

Do you need to say something to someone?
yes....

Heres your chance, fess up?
whut? hahaha

Ever cried till you threw up?
i think so

What were you doing at 2am last night?
sending a text to someone who was already sleeping

Are your parents married/divorced/separate?
married

When is the last time you saw your sister/s?
20 mins ago

Are you a social person?
pretty average

When was the last time you went out at night?
forgotten

Is the person you last texted single?
yeah

Is there someone that always makes you happy whenever you see them/talk?
yup

What were you doing when you found out Michael Jackson was dead?
it was 8am and my dad woke me up to tell me ahahahahaha

Hold hands with anyone yesterday?
no

Have you ever introduced yourself with a name other than your own?
yes

You’re going on a roadtrip: What MUST you bring with you?
lighter, cash, mp3 player, phone

Would it be more likely of you to fail Science or Math?
math

Do you want kids when your older?
dont know

Do you have any friends who you secretly dislike?
not exactly

Doesn’t it piss you off when fat people eat fattening foods?
no

Did you know that the average human eats 8 total spiders in a year when they’re asleep!?
what the fuck

Do you know anyone who says things like ‘lol’ in real life?
my sister

What color socks are you wearing?
none

If you could get away scot-free, would you kill someone?
yup

If aliens were attacking the Earth, would you run or make friends?
depends on how they look like

What job do you see yourself at 20 years from now?
writing some kind of report hopefully

When was the last time you burst into song for no reason?
i dont remember

What song was it?
dont remember that either

Have you ever finger-painted?
i dont think so

When you die, where do you want to be buried?
in a cementry

Do you consider a giant atom-smasher a threat to humanity?
errrrrrr... i dont think so

Do you want pigs to fly?
no they will shit everywhere

If you could be invisible for one day, what would you do?
sneak into his house

Would you rather fist-fight a badger or a koala?
koala

You have 70 seconds to live. What do you do?
call _______, tell him that _________, and cry

How much wood could a woodchuck chuck if a woodchuck could chuck wood?
twice its size? standard answer

Where was the last place you swore you’d never go to again?
hougang

Does the Taco Bell dog scare you?
no

Would you trust a polar bear with your life?
hahahhahahahahaha

Would you rather eat moldy meat or drink rotten milk?
rotten milk

Do you wish Pokemon were real?
yes i want to capture evee like omg

Have you ever played chicken with cars just for the hell of it?
i will probably get knocked down you know...... so no

Would you take advice from a talking McDonalds sandwich?
no

What would you rather blow up: a puppy or a kitty?
zzzzz

Do you understand what “e=mc2” means??
energy equals mass and ciruit area squared

Would you introduce the last person you kissed to your parents?
i would...... one day

Can a boy and girl be friends without having feelings for each other?
duh

Could you ever see yourself and your ex back together?
yeah but.....

If the last person you kissed, saw you kissing someone else, would they be mad?
you tell me?

Have you ever slept in the same bed as your friend?
yes

Would you have sex with the person you stole this from?
no

Do you know anyone who has AIDS?
no

Are you friends with the people you were friends with two years ago?
yes

Do you think if you died that your ex would even care?
depends which ex

When was the last time you threw up?
last month

Would you dump your bf/gf if they got into drugs?
no

Do you have a long term or short term memory?
long term

What can you hear right now?
tv

Where is your mum right now?
kitchen washing dishies

Do you use the word ‘epic’ daily?
no

Do you remember who you had a crush on in the 7th grade?
yup....

When was the last time you got so drunk you passed out?
i didnt pass out yet

Do you get freaked out when you’re in the dark?
yes if im alone

Looking back in time did you ever waste your time on a certain boy or girl?
yeah. that was a long time

Have you lied recently about the amount of people you’ve slept with?
no

Do you say sorry first?
yes

Have you ever punched a tree?
yes

Did you speak to your father today?
yes

Do you find it in your heart to forgive?
its somewhere there

Can you keep a secret?
yes

What is the thing that you would most like to change about you?
my two faced persona

Honestly, do you hate the last boy you were talking to in person?
i could never hate him

Are you afraid of roller coasters?
some of them

Have you ever stayed in a hotel?
yes

What is in your pocket?
erm nothing

Are promises important to you?
some are

Are you easy to get along with?
quite

Do you find it hard to trust others?
yes

Can you honestly say you’re okay right now?
no

Has anyone walked out of your life in the past 2 weeks?
yes

Would you go out in public looking like you do now?
throw me a jacket first

Have you ever kissed anyone whose name started with an C, A or T?
c no, a yes, t i think no

Have you ever been heartbroken?
yes

When was the last time someone held your hand?
friday

Could you go for the rest of your life without drinking alcohol?
no i dont think so

Who was the last person you talked to before you went to bed last night?
aloy g

Do you like to cuddle?
yup

If an ex said they hated you, you say?
er ok

What was the last movie you watched in theaters?
alice in wonderland

Honestly, has anyone seen you in your underwear in the past three months?
yes

What is on your wrists right now?
one bracelet

Would you like other people to see your survey answers?
dont care

2010-03-16T20:00:00.002+08:00

before anyones gonna tell me this, im going to say it myself
ive changed for the worst.

trust is like a piece of paper. once its crumpled it cant be perfect again.

2010-03-16T01:07:00.003+08:00

to a friend,

i was thinking of this before you went online.
sure, it took lots of time from sec 1 to build that trust wall
but it fell apart in what seemed like 5 hours ago.
words pulled that wall apart.
i dont know if things will ever be the same again though

------------------------------------------------------

to someone special,

it had been two years. for two years i didnt realise. and after two years it happened again.
to the honest truth, i love you.
but i know.....

2010-03-15T22:01:00.003+08:00

its so weird.
its like your sitting there on your bed with the laptop on and not doing anything much,
but you suddenly burst into tears

its even worse if its happening for consecutive evenings and probably for many evenings more

transition

2010-03-15T00:42:00.002+08:00

today, after burning myself, i threw away my lighter. mlia.

i was happy getting that call, but i wish i had said more...

2010-03-14T17:21:00.004+08:00

a very different lady gaga video =)

2010-03-13T08:08:00.003+08:00

i was tired while up, fell asleep in front of the laptop at 12 and woke up at 345am lol
gave up, went back to sleep and woke up at 730am
i cant sleep.
no blood.... not much of a scar.... but my arm hurts like hell

i just want a smoke now.

2010-03-12T21:42:00.004+08:00

you know i feel like drugging myself to death right now.

no more

2010-03-12T20:35:00.004+08:00

my eyes are so sore i cant even open them properly

its my fault actually...
i still feel like shit sometimes i wish i did not tell you
but you will know eventually, right?

i let you down
im sorry

the weirdest thing is this incident never affected how much i love you
i never loved you less at all

thank you for understanding
i dont know what to say anymore. i dont know what to do now. every other text seemed so meaningless already.

its going to kill me that the next day i wake up, i come aware to the fact that we re not together anymore

maybe we have a chance again
but its all up to me
knowing how dumb i am, i dunno if i'll make the right choice in time to come

i need time to think

2010-03-11T20:31:00.002+08:00

im confused right now.

thinking of you makes me cry. i havent seen you for a while. sitting at the corner during geog class watching trees sway and winds blow while ignoring the teachers droning makes me feel unhappy.

it had never shown.... no one knew. im only scared one day....

the distance would be too much for me to bear

im miles from where you are

2010-03-07T14:32:00.002+08:00

i do not expect you to be here with me forever, just long enough for me to be eternally happy and not regret a part of you coming into my life. for so long have i not loved someone so deep apart from my dad. or maybe all along i did love you. i just failed to acknowledge. im completely happy right now, only haunted by thoughts of you leaving. but they dont come often because i know youre here. i know you wont hurt me. i trust you enough.

subtle

2010-03-06T13:05:00.002+08:00

over the one month...
i didnt realise this but i actually lost a wonderful brother.
slowly... slowly... until he fades off... and gone.

i wonder when will this stupid feud end.

talking with tears

2010-03-05T21:32:00.004+08:00

i miss you so bad.

2010-03-04T22:46:00.001+08:00

stuff in a pill. gulp down some alcohol. smoke on a cigarette.

so this is gonna happen all over again?

2010-03-04T19:59:00.002+08:00

the times we dont talk and just smile at random points.... especially during today,
i felt that was "the best conversation ever".
its worth it getting lost in your eyes and thinking of nothing but you.

2010-03-02T21:24:00.003+08:00

yeah so im using my sister's computer while shes taptap revenging lol.
it hurts so much because i havent seen him for so long....
sure i look ok but i dont tell people how i feel right?

so im writing another letter.

2010-02-28T20:27:00.004+08:00

im the type of person who would do anything to see you smile. anything. just anything.
even if that meant letting you be harsh and cold and awful towards me, its ok. so long as you feel better, i'll feel better.
the exact number of jellybeans we bought yesterday.... they dont match up to how much and how big in quantity i love you. in fact, i dont think i can even start to count because the number, if love were to be represented in numbers, keeps increasing.
there isnt a limit. and its nice knowing there isnt.
nothing makes me happier than loving you

2010-02-26T23:09:00.003+08:00

yesterday my dad found my lighter. nothing happened after that.
spent time with hun after school and watched percy jackson and the lightning thief. medusa is scary i swear
then after that had some sort of a running game.... quite romantic you know! ;)

today had this thing called parliament and parent teacher meeting... couldnt see him felt upset. after parliament i had dinner with amanda ruofan amelia cherry yongjie yongsoon zeeman brian gavin and hyunseong at the nearby kopitiam. took a number of pictures. s-a-d huat ah! after everything walked with amelia yongjie yongsoon and ruofan then went home.

girls i hope yall will have a better term 2 ok :) term 1 wasnt a wonderful term... we all got our problems but nevertheless it takes time

i love you.

2010-02-24T23:03:00.001+08:00

every night whenever you say "i love you" or do something to make me feel better, i cry.